At twenty-three years old, I was already the mother of two. Newly separated from my abusive ex-fiancee, naive about life, love, and everything in between, and scared shitless of adulthood, I was a hot mess and desperate for safety and security. That’s when I met Him. He was way out of my league, or so…
To Insanity and Beyond
Stories, advice, and anecdotes from the trenches of parenthood for those with mental health and chronic illness diagnoses.
Hungry For More Than This Adventureless Marriage
After a decade of marriage, birthing four mini-me’s, and turning into a SAHM, I am beyond hungry. Starving, actually. My appetite has become insatiable and my cravings unsurmountable. Yet, it isn’t food that I am in need of to satisfy these hunger pangs. Not in the least. I am hungry for passion. Intimacy. Emotional stimulation….
Embracing the Darkness of Depression
Little can be done to change the fact that my brain is not hardwired as it should be, but plenty can be done to cope with the effects of the disease. Medications, therapies, and self-care techniques, coupled with a toolbox full of how to’s and what not to do’s learned by trial and error, make…
I Found Pain Relief With Medical Marijuana
Living with a disease that causes chronic pain was never part of my life plans. I couldn’t have prepared for it. Even if I had known what was in store beforehand. Pain. Limitations. Treatments. Therapies. Depression. They’re all part of the package. Finding relief while learning to navigate around my restrictions became the sole purpose…
My Reality-Too Young To Have Kids
There is no doubt in my mind that I had my children too young. It didn’t seem that way at the time, but I know better now. Just 21 years old when I had my first, I was naive and hopeful that everything would work itself out on its own accord. Twelve years later, I…
Survival Guide For The Football Addict’s Wife
My husband has addiction issues, but not to drugs or alcohol like you probably thought upon reading that. His addiction can only be fed during the same six months of the year, sending him into withdrawals for the other six months. He jumps aboard the bandwagon with all the others who can’t live without the…
Middle School Changes Motherhood Too
Middle school is a time of change for both kids and parents alike. Having two sons who will be in sixth and seventh grade this school year, I have come to see just how much the dynamic between us has shifted recently. The days of having two rambunctious little monkeys with an insatiable appetite for…
Longing For One More Baby…
What does one do when they want something they cannot have? Something out of their reach merely because of the circumstances of life? They simmer beneath the surface. They bring envy, jealousy, longing, and yearning together in one pot and pray it doesn’t boil over. That’s exactly where I am in my life – silently…
Hello! Hello? – The Solitude That Is Motherhood
Hello, hello? Is this thing even on? Can you hear me? Will someone just talk to me?!?! Please!? I need to hear the sound of my voice again. Not my mom voice – high-pitched and so sickly-sweet it gives me a migraine just thinking about it ringing in my ears. I want to use my…